Hurting...

11-11-08 (5.30am)

Dear Diary,

I've been away for days. I don't know what cross my mind. Everything just seems like going down for me. Well, let's just say that I am alive and writting this post. I have never been the type to state how I feel, but there are a few things that I would like to tell her.

Every morning I wake up and there is a pain that shoots through my heart. The thought that I have to spend another day without her rips my soul apart. From washing my face till driving my car wherever I travel, I think of her.

Never in my wildest dreams had I ever dreamt that I would fall in love with her. Words can never express the way i felt for her. I haven't ever talked to anyone so like her before. She make me feel so special like never before.

I'm starting to develop strong feelings towards her, and I don't know why. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I'm starting to fall for her, and it is driving me crazy, because I can't seem to tell her how I really feel cause she just went away. I miss her. I miss her message on my phone when I wake up. I miss chatting with her for hours. Eachtime, my phone ring or message... I do hope is her but...
Did she ever think of me? Did she miss me? I wonder... I miss her voice...

I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated her. That sooner or later I would come to believe it. But I now realize that by lying, it makes me want her even more.

"It's a long road when she face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for her to hold. She can find love if she search within my soul, and the emptiness she felt will disappear."

"How can I forget she when she always on my mind? How can I not want her when she all I want inside? How can I let her go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love her when she control my heart?"

"Life without love, is a life without meaning."

P/S: From The Author:

I dedicate this post to the Special Girl....
I want to take this opportunity to say thank you in my own simple way. Every day seems like a blessing since I've met you.

Words cannot explain how much your friendship means a lot to me.
You're an awesome person. You're attractive, honest, sweet intelligent, kind and passionate in every way.

Your messages cheers me up from time to time. If I haven't told you, I'm so lucky to have found you across the line. Near or far I'll always be thinking of you.

Missing You... Do u?